Who Am I?

These past few days, I have really been reflecting on all that God has given me and blessed me with throughout my life and even now, here in New York. After all, He died for me, gave me life, loves me even though I am sinner, blessed me with a place to live, food to eat, amazing friends, confidence in who I am, a car, my job, and pretty much everything else that I have. Its not mine, its His. But this is the thing-who am I to be given such a wonderful life when in reality, I am a sinner. I hurt people's feelings, I say things that I shouldn't say most of the time, I sometimes act before I think. I'm selfish and ignorant. Sometimes, I act like I know everything, when I really don't. I pick fights with people and I make people mad. I cry and yell, ignore people, and sometimes even have a sense of hate towards others. So with all of that...Who am I to be given such a wonderful life when I take it for granted? Who am I to deserve all that I have in life? Who am I?


Growing up, I never understood what it meant to be a person of value. I mean after all, the people around me never treated me like I was worth something. Like I belonged in this world. I believed the lies that this world told me and I also believed that I was a nobody. That I was worthless. As I look back, because of those things and the fact that I am and was human, I isolated away from everyone and everything that was important to me, not only that, but I would constantly ask myself am I important? Was I important enough to continue living the the wonderful life that I was living, even though I thought it was hell on earth. Was I important to continue living??? Who was I living for?


It wasn't until four years ago when I found Christ and gave my heart and my life to Him, that I finally realized exactly who I was and exactly who I was living for. I learned that I was not, and am still not, here for myself, but for Christ. I learned that I am here to serve Him and to love others by showing Christ's love for them. I here to reproduce passionate disciples and to make disciples of Christ, with His guidance. I learned that He was beaten and tortured and to die on the cross for me, because He found me valuable. He saw me as being "worth it".

Now, when I ask myself who I am, I can remind myself that I am His and nobody else. I am His beloved, His bride, His princess, His daughter. I am everything to Him. That's who I am. That's who you are.