Being Seperated From My "Comfortable Zone"

   I'm not going to lie, things in New York have been somewhat stressful and crazy. Nothing in particular, just life in general...if that makes any sense. It's all still new for me, even when I do the daily routine of going to work or church, knowing where I'm going for the most part..just waking up everyday and reminding myself that I am no longer in Ohio-no longer in my "comfortable zone", has its own level of stress, alongside other things. So this past weekend, I came back to that "comfortable zone" of mine, known as Ohio...my home, and I must say things have been very peaceful and even though it was chaotic at times, running around like a chicken with no head, trying to see all of my friends and the little family that I was actually able to see. (that's another story in itself), it was just what I needed to head back to New York and await another heart-desired visit here to Ohio.

Now, as I am typing this, I have less than two hours left before I hit the "open road" to head back to the new "home" God has given me, and I must say, I am very much saddened by it all. Just to think that I won't be able to come back for God knows how long, and the fact that I am five hours away (which in reality-is not bad at all) from everyone and my family, breaks my heart. This weekend, I literally felt like I wasn't even from Ohio, but more of a visitor, and that's what I was. A visitor....of my home state.

I'm saddened at the fact that life is carrying on here in Ohio, and I feel like I missing out on a lot of things. I mean, I don't mean that New York is bad or anything, I love it there, its just "home is where the heart is" and right now, it feels like my heart is in Ohio. I even stayed an extra day to fill that "loss" inside of me. Now I must tell myself that I must go back to New York, that still place of "uncomfort", and continue on with my life that God has prepared for me there. My life now that has been placed before me is; being a disciple and teaching about Christ, a coffee girl that works on the corner of Court Street, a soon-to-be nanny, and in my eyes, just another average girl living a very uncomfortable life. But god never promised life would be easy, let alone comfortable, and honestly, if our lives our comfortable, then there is something completly wrong there! It means that our hearts, my heart, is not in the right place. So I am heading back to the "un-normal" realm of things, and embracing every moment of being uncomfortable.

"New York, I'm coming back ready to face whatever comes my way. And for you dear Ohio, soon enough, God willing, I will be back. So this is not goodbye, but a 'see you soon' type of thing." Goodbye Ohio!!!