"When God Writes Your Love Story"

  This past year, I have found myself, along with the depths of my heart to simply be in love. I have been longing to find that "special someone" who would wrap his arms around me, lend a shoulder to cry on, to laugh with, and spend time together, and of course, to one day say the heartfelt vows that would have us spend the rest our lives together as husband and wife. I have been telling myself "That certain guy is out there somewhere. Just gotta go fishing for him." Well...as much as I want to "fish" for him, I have realized that I can't. It's all up to God and His timing for when I start my "love life". Believe it or not, that realization came harder than what I wanted it to. I mean after all, here was this BIG REALITY, and yet in the midst of it, all of my friends were getting engaged and married-and to this day, they still are! As a matter of fact, I have a wedding to go to this afternoon!

 Up until a few short weeks ago, I would tell myself "Well maybe if I would lose thirty pounds or so, 'Mr. Right' will come along." -or- "All I have to do is put myself out there and go on these dating websites! Someone will surely become my boyfriend!!" Um...ya. Well those thoughts pretty much failed and.... *clears throat*.... were WRONG! Now as I think back and actually see what I am writing, I laugh. How silly, or in other words, absurd to think such thoughts. But...I'm human. I believe those thoughts come natural, especially for us women! However, another thought came to my mind "Am I letting God write my love story? Am I handing over that pen that I have been holding on to for so long?"

 Back in May, a dear friend of mine from New York, gave me a book titled "When God Writes Your Love Story" by Eric and Leslie Ludy. As much as I loved my friend as a sister in Christ, I took one look at the title and thought "I don't need to read this. I'm not even in a relationship." I took it anyway, and in the trunk of my car it went. It sat there for months on end...until last week. I was rummaging through my car, and I came across the book. I didn't pick it up right away, but instead tossed it to the side. Long story short, I ended up taking the book with me, along with a few other miscellanious  items I grabbed from my "junk trunk"....I started reading. 

 I'm not going to elaborate a whole lot about the book, simply because I encourage each of you who reads my blog, to go and get this book, because it will change your life! I am only on page 171 of 271, and I can honestly say, it has changed the way I look at relationships, dating, sexuality, romance, and more importantly, what it means to follow God rather than following the fake-love standards of this world. At the end of each chapter, Eric and Leslie challenge you in different aspects, and yesterday, as I was reading through the challenges, I came across the very last bullet point...to write a letter to my future husband. Now you're probably thinking "That's crazy! How can you write a letter to someone you don't even know yet?!" and that's okay if you're thinking that, because I did too! However; in this book, the Ludy's talk about how to live your life not only for Christ, but also for your future husband/wife. Live your life as if they are watching you, everywhere you go, and are able to see everything you do and hear everything you say. Ask yourself "If my future husband followed me around throughout my day, every day of my life, would he feel cherished and adored by me as I interact with others and the opposite sex? Would he feel loved by my actions or feel hurt that I am giving away what belongs to only my future husband.? "The secret to amazing romance is to begin practicing purity for your spouse and cherishing that person with your thoughts, actions, and words long before you even meet him or her." That is exactly how I will be living my life from now on. For Christ, and for the future man that He has planned for me. In my letter that I wrote to my "husband", I expressed my love for him and for Christ. Writing this letter, opened my eyes to see the areas in my life that I need to deeply be in prayer about. I am learning that I cannot love someone else, if I do not love myself for who God has made, nor can I love someone else when God is not the center of my life. I'm not saying that I don't place God in my life, but I do have a tendency to only allow Him in certain areas in my life. If He knocks on the doors of my heart, and if it's in a room that I don't want Him to enter, I fight with Him about it....but God always wins. I am not ready to "begin a journey toward marriage with my future husband until I learn to find my confidence, joy, and security first and foremost in Jesus Christ." Only when He is truly in first place am I ready for a God-written love story.  

  I am learning that God cares way too much about me to see me settle for a fake-love formula. He wants me to lean on Him and only Him for guidance and direction. He wants to be intimately involved in every detail and every step of the way of my life. "Only leaning on God alone and allowing Him to guide and direct every part of our existence will set the stage for a beautiful romance."  So if you are going to start living your life for Christ and for your future husband/wife, make sure that you place God in every aspect of your life. Give him the pen and let Him write your love story. 

 I have many more letters to write for my husband, and I can't wait to give them to him and say that this is God's love-story for both of us!