"Malarie! Slow down!...Malarie! Talk to me!!!!!....Malarie!!! BE STILL!!!" These are the words that God has been speaking/commanding to me these past few weeks. And today..I finally listened and fell flat on my face and said "Here I am God! I'm listening! I can't go on any longer! I'm sorry I haven't been listening to you!" These past few weeks, I have been restless.
Today in church, we talked about how life gives us "detours." That is exactly what life has been doing to me...throwing me detours. However; sometimes, life isn't the only thing that throws these curve balls. Sometimes, its sin and even God. These detours can either make you slow down and get lost or take you to the exact place that God wants you to be at. Sadly, these detours of mine, have slowed me down but I am constantly going.
I am so blessed to have a God that is so powerful that He doesn't let us forget that He is there! I mean, today, it felt like He had to take every ounce of energy from me in order to just stop my own life and listen to Him-which is not how it should be at all. When I got home from church, I immediately crawled into my bed and read my Bible and just prayed. I prayed until I found myself fast asleep-which I think in this case, is the most beautiful kind of prayer. When your body and spirit is at peace, you can fall asleep. As I was praying, I knew God was right there, rubbing me and massaging me on the back, and saying "You need to not let life get you distracted from me. You constantly run and run and run some more, and then that's when you lose sight of me and I end up getting half the glass of water, when I am asking you for an overflowing glass. You get distracted by the anxiety, the problems, the turmoils, the bitterness, the busyness of this world, that you forget that I am the only one that matters and should matter in your life. And in all of this, you forget that I am the Great I Am, the creator and the redeemer, the comforter and the peace maker of your life. But you have to allow yourself to slow down enough to let me love and comfort you. I hear your prayers. I love you my dear child. Slow down and be still." After this moment, I laid down, and it felt as if God placed a blanket of peace over me and I fell asleep....I slept for 8 hours.
And with what God spoke to me, it was so loud and so true! These past few weeks I have been caught up in my everyday life of going to work, solving my own problems, running and running, without even giving Him praise! This week, I hate to admit, but I have to in order to grow, that these past two weeks have been the most busiest and most draining I have ever had! These past few weeks, I have fallen short of the glory of God and never rested in His presence. I must slow down. I must place God above everything else. Stop and pray. I must listen to Him.
Heavenly Father,
I thank you that you love me enough to never give up on me, even during those times that I don't stop to listen to the still small voice of you. God, I pray that you give me rest and eyes to see more of who you are. Allow me to not be focused on life itself, but instead for me to be focused on being a follower of your name, and a disciple of you. Give me peace, God. In your name I pray....AMEN.
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