Hardest Goodbye...R.I.P KHRISTEN SNYDER

We're born, we live, we die. That is how life goes. It is a never ending cycle. To be honest with you, I am afraid of death. I know I am going to heaven, or at least that is my prayer, but I am more afraid of how it will happen.

Last night, I lost a good friend of mine from high school. Khristen and I were both in Early Childhood Education our Junior year and Teaching Professions our Senior Year. The thought of how her death happened, scares me and to a high degree-shocks me. She was driving...being as cautious as could be...next thing she knew, she was being hit on by someone who went left to center and hit her head on. Wasn't expecting it to happen. She wasn't expecting to die. But she did....

The feelings that I have right now as I write this continues to be sadness and shock. I am saddened as I remember all the good times that her and I had as we taught the sweet, little, 5 year olds to write their name and learn their ABC's. I am remembering her as the girl who shared a rotation with me at all the Elementary schools and would car pool together to get there. Her laugh and awesome smile that would always brighten your day no matter what was going on. No words can describe how I feel right now. None.

Honestly, I can't believe she's gone.

 

 

"Are You in Love?...NO!!! We're JUST Friends!"

"To define true love, would be to ruin it's purity, therefore, it has no definition.

There isn't an example even Shakespeare could describe."



 

 

             "malarie?! are you in love?........NO!!! WE'RE JUST FRIENDS!" i am not sure how many   times i have heard this but seriously...we are JUST friends! wait. you're probably wondering who i am talking about right? well keep reading and you will find out! 

i don't even know how to put these feelings into words. these emotions and the tremendous amount of joy that i have within me! Over the course of a week and a half, God introduced me to a man who is now a really good friend. being around him makes me happy and it is the type of happiness that i never thought i could find within myself or even deserve. when i am around him, i feel security and hope. i smile and laugh more than i have within the past two or three years! he is a man that has accepted me for me and expects nothing to change. compliments me and tells me that i look nice. you're probably thinking-man she has a wonderful boyfriend in her life....well if you are thinking that, you're wrong. he is not my boyfriend. we are not dating. we are simply friends.

JUST FRIENDS! 

we are the type of friends that through prayer and supplication, God is transforming us into something beautiful through the act of friendship. and honestly, being friends with this man, God has been able to change my heart to have understanding, knowledge, and care towards this man that God has placed in my life at this specific time. i have been finding myself in prayer for him and for God to change both of our hearts. we have talked about dating, but so far we are still JUST FRIENDS. and honestly, i am perfectly okay with that! 

        

      i am not sure what more to say, except that i am happy and i am thanking god for this man in my life, in this season that i am, and i wouldn't change it for anything in the world right now. i ask that you, the reader, would pray for the two of us as we seek Christ and His plans for us. whether we stay friends or move on to the next level, i ask that you pray that we will be guided by God and stay focused on Him throughout this friendship journey that we are on.

                                        THANKS FOR READING!!